SUICIDE RATE IN WOMEN JUMPS BY 50%
KELLI RUSSELL AGODON
She woke up on the edge
of a lake surrounded by pianos
even though she wanted violins,
how she loved to hear their sad strings
accompanied the dying trees.
When she saw her reflection
in the water, her body looked to be an entrance
and she wanted to dive into herself. But she couldn’t
remember where she left her strength. Somewhere
with her keys? On the messy nightstand
of a deer? She started tidying the forest, raking the fallen
leaves with her fingernails, sweeping the dust
of the bunnies, putting the pinecones in the arms
of a willow.
What’s in her body is a burden and maybe
she’s weeping as she steps over a cliff where a nest
of swallows tells her to see her wounds as flowers.
The world wants its metaphors. Like suicides,
pianos rest at the bottom of the lake, deliberate
departures, untuned, dilapidated bodies
of songs once played.
KELLI RUSSELL AGODON is the cofounder of Two Sylvias Press where she works as an editor and book cover designer. Her most recent book, Hourglass Museum, was a finalist for the Washington State Book Awards and shortlisted for the Julie Suk Poetry Prize. Her second book, Letters from the Emily Dickinson Room was the winner of the Foreword Indies Book of the Year for poetry and was also a finalist for the Washington State Book Awards. She has received awards from the Poetry Society of America, the Dorothy Sargent Rosenberg Foundation, James Hearst Poetry Prize, Artist Trust, and the Puffin Foundation. She coauthored The Daily Poet: Day-By-Day Prompts for Your Writing Practice, with poet Martha Silano and is the Co-Director of Poets on the Coast. She lives in a sleepy seaside community where she's an avid paddleboarder and hiker.